What scares me

Some people are afraid of heights, some are afraid of clowns, others are afraid of spiders, but I am afraid of food. Seriously, I'm terrified.
Most of you know I am into holistic and natural and organic things, well recently I joined a holistic group on facebook and came across a recommendation for a documentary on organic food. I found the documentary on Netflix and it consumed me. Once I finished watching Netflix recommended more documentaries for me to watch (Netflix recommends movies and shows based on things you have recently watched or rated sometimes it only gives you 10 seconds to decide if you want to watch it or not before it starts playing) and I obliged and watched them. Over the course of 5 days I have watched roughly 10 or 11 hours of documentaries on food and chemicals. I have also done about 12 hours of my own research. I just can't stop watching and reading this stuff. I am now convinced that every time I eat I am poisoning my body. I will definitely be going back to buying only organic and cutting out as much meat from my diet as I can. I told Kevin that I have changed my mind and I am willing to settle for a smaller house if it means I can have a bug yard with plenty of space for me to plant my gardens and fruit tress and berry bushes. I also still really want to own chickens but after learning what is in milk I now also want my own dairy cow. I talked Kevin into chickens a long time ago so maybe now I can get him to okay a cow (wishful thinking).