14 Weeks

How far along? 14 weeks 1 day

How big is baby? The size of a lemon

Total weight gain/loss:  About 1 pound

Maternity clothes? Not yet but a couple pairs of my scrub pants are getting to feel tighter

Sleep: I sleep pretty well other than having to get up to pee once or twice a night

Best moment this week: We spent the afternoon Saturday at Derrick and Natalie's house. The boys played video games and I snuggled Baby Veda and talked to Natalie

Movement: I'm sure baby is moving around in there but I can't feel it yet

Food cravings:  First few weeks it was potato salad, then fish, then bagels, and this week its fruit salad

Food Aversions: Nothing really. Things that have a strong smell still make me queasy 

Gender: Still a surprise

Labor Signs:  No way too early

Pregnancy Symptoms:  I'm tired, hip pain, and nausea 

Belly Button in or out? In and I hope it stays that way

What I miss:  Not feeling tired and a nice cold margarita 

What I am looking forward to:  Feeling baby's movements and the next ultrasound 

Upcoming appointments/events:  I have my 16 week check up in a couple weeks

Milestones: Making it to the second trimester

I have been away from the blog for a while. I didn't really have anything exciting to blog about and then when we did have something exciting we weren't ready to share the news so the blog stayed on the back burner. Now that we have something everyone will want to read about I am going to try to do a weekly update. 

November 10th I woke up and decided to take a pregnancy test before I got in the shower. (This is not unusual for me I generally do a pregnancy test once a month, I have not had a period in over a year so once a month just to make sure I take a test. I have been seeing an infertility based practice for just under a year. No matter what they suggested or what we tried my period stayed away. I did everything they asked me to and nothing worked so we set up an appointment for December 10th. I was dreading that appointment I didn't want to hear how broken my body was, I didn't want them to tell me how few options there were left.) I got up let the dogs out, dug out the test from the back of the linen closet, (I kept them well hidden just in case someone was over and need something from the closet. I didn't want to talk about why they were there) I let the dogs in, fed them breakfast, turned the shower on to heat up, and peed on the stick. Within 30 seconds there were two pink lines. I couldn't believe it. I took one of the fastest showers of my life because I wanted to get to work early and call my doctor's office. When I was finally able to call they told me to come in whenever for the blood test to confirm. I left work 30 minutes early and went to got my blood drawn and they told me it would be Monday or Tuesday before my results would come in but I would have to come in Monday for the second confirmation test. I went home and waited for Kevin. He got home and I couldn't find a time or way to tell him so I went to the bathroom and took one more test. It was positive so I decided I would just hand him the test. I was so overwhelmed with emotions that by the time I walked from the bathroom to the living room I was quietly crying. As I handed him the test I was full on sobbing and laid on top of him. Poor Kevin had no idea what was going on, he looked at the test asked if I was pregnant when I responded yes he laughed. I was crying and he was laughing. He asked if I was sad, of course I wasn't sad, I was excited, and terrified what if I had to live through every pregnant women's worst nightmare. 

Monday I left work 30 minutes early again and went and had my second confirmation test. While I was there they told me that my results from Thursday had come in and I was for sure pregnant. I started having cramps that night. The cramps continued and on Wednesday I called the doctor. They told me this could be nothing or it could mean bad news and that I would need to come in on Thursday for another blood draw. My results same in on Monday and they called to tell me that my numbers were doubling normally but my hormones were very low. They gave me all the very scary facts and what ifs and then told me they recommended that I immediately start on hormone injections but it was completely my choice if I wanted to do them or not. I told her without hesitation that if the injections were what was best I wanted to start them that night. I texted Kevin the news and went back to work. After work I went home picked up Kevin and we went to pick up my prescription. Here is the part of the story where I get extremely angry the checkout lady says here is how much you owe because insurance companies don't cover these types of medications. I was pissed. I could not grasp that fact that my insurance company is allowed to deny me coverage for a medication that I needed. Without these injections my pregnancy would not be viable so we paid out of pocket and left fuming that this is how messed up our healthcare is. 

(Infertility in America is a joke, there is almost no help for it. There are very few insurance companies that will cover the cost to diagnose it and then there are even fewer insurances that will cover treatment and then even fewer that will help cover the cost of IVF. We are in the minority, the lucky ones. The insurance we have covered the cost of diagnosis, all my appointments, and tests and we have the option of having Tricare which is one of the very very very few companies that will help cover treatment. We are also lucky that we that we can pay every month out of pocket for the prescription, there are some people who I'm sure can not and my heart breaks for them.)